Damned Dream {Mikey Way One Shot}
So, this one shot is based on my dream . It's real that I fell in love with my own cousin but I'm grateful that what I wrote down here is just taken from a dream . I won't hope it would come true of course . hope you enjoy it !
"I know how your feeling to me is." Mikey stated in a flat tone. He sat on the one edge of the couch while I sat on the other edge. He gazed away into the empty space even though he meant to talk to me.
I was paralyzed. My lungs couldn't work as well so I couldn't breathe enough to supply the oxygen to my brain. It seemed darkened but I gained back my control after seconds. My breath was still so heavy as he glared at me and turned away quickly, didn't care how pathetic I was in minimum oxygen supply. I could tell that my face went pale.
"I know everything. Went on by a simple crush from a little girl 'til it has grown up to be a painful crush now in your teenage." His voice sounded so evil, with little smirk I could tell. My feeling was hit so hard that time. 'How could he do this to me?' But it still didn't remove my crush to him. My crush that had been painted in my heart since I was 3 and he was 10. And now I'd been 17. And the best thing from my love was that, Mikey was the son of my Dad's elder sister. He was my own cousin.
"Say something, Nat!" He ordered but still not looked at me. I tried to manage my breath then opened my mouth to do what he asked me. But my words choked in my throat by tears I couldn't bear. It killed every system in whole entire of my body.
"I... I..." I was even more like a fish out from the water which gasped for the air. I was an idiot one. Then I felt his eyes glared at me again as I tried to soothe myself by looking to my lap and then closed my eyes hardly. I shook my head as tears slowly rolled down my cheeks. I sobbed in silent.
He unexpectedly moved closer to me. I could tell that he scrutinized my sob for seconds then lifted my face by my chin. I couldn't believe he touched me after all he said to me. He even never had been so caring like that. His dark brown eyes pierced into my light brown ones. They made me shocked by showing their softness. I expected them to be harsh or something but they were really really sincere and soft.
He leant forward, brought his face closer to mine then crashed our lips together. His hands were rested on my arms. I closed my eyes even when his lips hadn't touched mine yet. He just pressed our lips together for moment then went on to be more wet by licking my lips. It sent sensation through my spine and soon enough I melted into his kiss. I opened my mouth to make an allowance for his tongue to explore my mouth. I tangled my fingers on his hair as the kiss went to more passionate. We let out little moan from our throat.
There was a feeling in my mind that wanted the time to stop that time. The time when I tasted his lips, the time when our skins touched, the time when I felt his warmth, and the time when I could smell his good scent clearly.
But as soon as the kiss started, he ended it by pulling away my face by his hands. I opened my eyes slowly to find his irresistible eyes again pierced on mine. A small smile formed from ear to ear that just made his face more gorgeous. I hesitatingly smiled back at him.
"I wish that's enough cause you know we won't be like you want. And I want you to know that I want it badly." his words stabbed me and boiled my blood inside of my veins. But I threw back myself to the reality.
"Yeah... That's worth it." I nodded and he hugged me so tight as tears started to roll down on my cheek again. He soothed me by rubbing my back up and down.
"I can be yours anytime you want." He whispered to my hair. I just nodded and I could feel he kissed my hair. It made more tears rolled down and dripped his shirt. I didn’t know how to feel, happy to know he had the same feeling like me, sad to realize that the crush had to stop by the time he said it had to, or relief for being in his arms even it wouldn’t be last forever.
