Gothician Lover Girl

*Later that afternoon*

Val asked me to go with her to Matt's place. His parents were out tonight for such an anniversary so he wanted Val to be there.

"Other dudes come?" I asked while my copy was driving.

"Mhmm. They won't ever miss a thing. But they might come at 6 or 7." she grinned and turned to me, finding me in my serious face but still hardly tried to smile back. "You really wanna do that tonight?" she always could read my mind. And this time, about breaking up with Brian. I sighed heavily to take off all the hesitation.

"Yeah, of course." I nodded and spaced out on the road. Val let me had my own time to think about what I was gonna do over and over again. And finally, the car stopped in front of Matt's house. I noticed that someone called Val as she flipped her cell phone open and started the conversation.

"Hey, Matt. I'm in front of your house. Wait a minute." she said then paused to let Matt replied her words. "Okay, baby. I love you." then she paused again and I guessed just to let Matt said 'I love you too' or something like that. She finally ended the conversation then turned to me, realizing that I watched her over as long as Matt called.

I couldn't truly describe the feeling inside of me. Jealous maybe. I hated everything that Val could get but I couldn't, LOVE. But I put no blame to her cause she was the most wonderful family and friend I'd ever got.

We climbed out from the car and headed to Matt's house. The door was unlocked. We set ourselves in and found Matt on the couch in front of the TV, staring at the MTV's Headbangers while Slipknot acted on stage. He didn't turned to see us walked in.

"Hi, Love!" Val greeted him. She leant forward to pecked him on the lips while he rested his head backward. They were really a dream couple. Val sat beside him as Matt circled his muscled arm around her shoulder. I set my ass in the other side and Matt quickly put his other arm around my shoulder.

"Wow, it's great to hold two great girls in my arms." he stated. I smiled slightly. Val did the same then rested his head on his chest. I stood up unexpectedly as my mind traced a short flash thinking in my brain. I got an idea to calm myself down before talking to Brian.

"Matt, may I use your room?" I looked down to Matt.

"Yeah, sure." he nodded. I made my way to the stairs and stopped in my second step.

"Tell Brian I wait up for him upstairs." I found them turned to me and nodded in unison.

I brought myself into Matt's room and laid on his soft bed staring at the wall clock that showed 5 pm. Val told me the other guys would come at 6 or 7 so I still had time to think about things. I thought about random stuffs but Brian's figure popped so often in my head. I tried so hard to remove him just to get my calm but always failed. I gave up and let him drifted me to a dreamless sleep.

My eyes were unexpectedly opened. I stared at the clock and realized that I had been sleeping for about one and half hours.I sighed and rubbed my temple, flipping my eyes close and taking a deep breath. Then I heard the door opened and someone came in. I didn't need to open my eyes and turned to figure the person that just entered the room.

"Hello, babe!" Brian's voice came closer as he leant and pressed his lips on my cheek. "Are you okay?"

I nodded then opened my eyes. He turn on the small light on the side table to give brighter sight for both of us. I stared at his deep brown chocolate eyes and sighed heavily. I sat up on the bed and signed him to sit beside me.

"Whatsup, Michy?" he asked after sitting beside me. He grabbed my hand kissed my neck. I shivered but tried so hardly to ignore it.

"Brian, I need to talk to you something." I turned to face him just to make him stop kissing my neck so I wouldn't be distracted from the topic. Dammit, staring at his gorgeous face made me more speechless. His beautiful chocolate brown eyes peirced in my hazel green ones.

"What is it, babe?" he put some hairs behind my ear softly. Once again, I couldn't help but shiver. I closed my eyes to make myself comforter then took a deep breath. As I opened my eyes, Brian stared at me curiously, furrowing his eyebrows.

"Okay," I interupted by taking another deep breath. "Brian, I love you -"

"I love you, too." he cut me off and pressed my lips gently on his. I melted and kissed him back, put my hand on his cheek. I closed my eyes to fight all this passion and finally gained my power back. I pulled away fastly cause he still wanted the kiss went on and it made him shocked. He gave me a questioning look.

"Honey, Brian, I think we need to break up for a while." I said fastly before he could gave any action that would interupt me again. He widened his eyes and dropped his jaw.

"Break up?" his voice sounded in disbelief. "What's wrong with us?"

"Us?" I chuckled and shook my head. "Not us, babe. You."

"Me?"

"Listen to me, my Syn. I need a person who can fully love me and -"

"I love you, Michelle. Don't you believe it?" he cut me off again.

"I do believe in you." I put my hand on his cheek to soothe him. "But that's not all what I mean."

"So?"

"Well," I sighed in frustration. "I know that you love me and I love you, too. But I need more than that. I see everything you guys do in party, those bithces. And deep inside my heart can't accept that. I feel betrayed. So, I think it's gonna work if we break up." I carefully said. His eyes looked for the meaning of every words.

"I'm sorry, Michelle." his voice came to regret. He dropped his eyes down to his lap.

"Hey," I lifted his face to face me by his cheek. I saw his eyes filled by tears but they didn't seem to fall. I caressed his cheek and smiled slightly. "It's okay. I can understand that you still want more for your youth. Don't worry!"

"But I don't wanna break up with you." he said almost cried. I softly gave him a short kiss on the lips softly.

"It's not that bad. We'll still be friends. And if we are really destined to be together, we can try it again later." I still could see the mourn in his eyes. "You got it?"

He nodded slightly then smiled at me. He hugged me by his muscular arms.

"I promise you I'll change." he said as he ran his hand up and down on my back.

"Keep it to yourself!" I stated after we pulled away.

"Okay. But I want you to know that I still love you." he grabbed my hands and kissed them. My smile appeared as I heard him said it meaningfully.

"I know you do." I said.

Sorry if it's been so long . and sorry if it sucks.